Sh*t Just Got Real

I am a tall glass of water from entering no man's land - a weight that I have never seen in my life and a weight that I refuse to allow to show up on my scale.

I want this to go away.  I feel like I am drowning in my own body. Besides this crazy number on the scale, let me clue you in on other real shi*t:

•  My clothes do not fit.  At all.  I am walking around looking like an uncomfortable sausage woman squeezed into jeans.  It is not a good look at all.
• I hardly recognize my body in the mirror.  I tend to think that I am skinnier than I actually am.  And then I see myself in the mirror and realize just how real this thing is. I am overweight like crazy. 
• I can't stop eating. 

I am at a point in my life where I need to decide whether to start this journey all over again, or just resign myself to the fact that I am just going to be overweight.

I'll keep you posted on which path I choose.

The Results are IN!!

I woke up this morning pretty excited to go to my weekly meeting. And besides the snickers debacle, I've been on track this whole week. Whats great about Weight Watchers is that you just have to be "good" most of the time - indulging once in a while is kinda built into the whole plan. Thats been my experience with it anyway.

I was a little late to my meeting because I stopped at trader joes for a Cliff bar (will discuss that disaster later) to snack on while I was at the meeting. Stepped on the scale and clocked in at....wait for it.....
wait for it...


161.6!!!
The photographic evidence :)

Yes! Its true!
I lost 3lbs this week.
Well, let me just note that a 3lb loss isn't really typical for me. But last week I had a 2 lb gain so I think that's why my loss was so serious. I didn't even exercise since I just wanted to get back to the basics of the whole food thing.

But regardless .... 161.6!?!? AHH! I am so pumped! I called my Mom and told her about it all nonchalant but inside I was doing my happy dance! Go Me! At this point, I am very close to other milestones (soooo close to 25lb lost, soooo close to being out of the 160s!!) But I don't want to think about it too much. I'll just keep focused on this new week and food and maybe throw in a little exercise somewhere. Wish me luck!




xoxo
dee.