Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Meatless Wednesday

I was supposed to get some activity in after work but honestly traffic was so annoying I got a headache and decided to skip it.  oh well.  
I am really trying not to get too down on myself about the fact that I have gained back so much of the weight that I lost.  Its frustrating and I feel like a failure every time I look in the mirror.  I just feel so sluggish and frumpy and...honestly....i feel like a slob! I am really making a conscious effort to stop the negative self talk because I know its not productive. 

I am working all this week and then I will be off from work until the third of january.  YAY!! I am really looking forward to my vacation.  I really plan on using that time to focus on getting used to staying active and eating healthy so that when I go back to work it will be second nature.  I started working in April. I remember during my first month of work I was weighing in at around 166.  That means that I have gained just about 14 lbs since I started.  Thats crazy!  I don't even have an excuse.  All I know is that since working exercise has taken the back seat and I haven't spent as much time preparing my meals like I should.  I am a work in progress. 

As far as my eating - I had a meatless day today!! It wasn't really on purpose.  After I finished lunch I realized I had not had any meat for the day and I decided what the heck.  Why not just have a meatless dinner as well?

2 slices WW whole grain bread
1 egg
1 oz smoked salmon
5 pts

Amy's Black bean tamale
1 c tofu
14 pts

75 gold fish
5 pts

2/3 c tofu (curried)
3/4 c white rice
1 tsp sesame oil
1/2 tsp olive oil
1/4 c soy milk
8 pts
 I really did not want to have white rice for dinner, but my mother had a christmas party this past weekend and there were sooooo many left overs (including the white rice) that it didnt make sense for me to cook brown rice.  I didn't want to waste food..just sayin....

Total for the day: 32 Weekly Bonus Points Used: 3

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

My pants are tight.

Today I restarted my C25K training program.  i restarted on Week 2 Day 1 and let me tell you my legs were talking to me the whole time.  I think they were confused since they thought we quit this whole training thing last month.  I am determined to see this plan through though.

It always helps when you have a buddy - like I said in my previous post, I have a friend that I have recruited to run a 5K with me in mid-february.  She lives in Tampa so we will be training separately, but its fun having someone to check in with.  Plus she is a bit more competitive than I am so I know I will be motivated the whole time to stay on track.  I've been trying to get my boyfriend to run the race as well and he says he will.  I am not sure if he actually wants to or if he just wants to be supportive.  We'll see what happens. 

Monday, December 20, 2010

mish mosh of everything.


I feel like a failure. 
For me, weight loss and healthy living is such a constant struggle.  Every time i think i have it all figured out, I hit this mental roadblock that just totally derails me and i lose my focus.  I become rebellious and pass up the fuji apple for the second slice of pumpkin pie.  I start compromising and I tell myself that a five pound gain isn't THAT serious....i can work that off in two weeks right? RIGHT? .... not really.

Those 5 pound gains really add up when the time to get my head back in the game never comes.  Next week's promise to start counting my points again turns into next month.  Or maybe the month after that.   My clothes still fit right? RIGHT? ....not really.  I would like to unbutton my pants as I type this. 

The journey from 159 to 179 lbs really happens in the blink of an eye....well at least faster than it took me to go from 179 to 159.  Weight loss shouldnt be a round trip. :(

Okay enough of the complaining/pity party. Its really time to take the reins on this and quit effing around.

The Weight Watchers program has undergone a few changes recently and it kinda feels like i'm learning how to do this all over again.  Points values for most foods have changed along with my daily target and weekly points allowance.  It's annoying that I have to look up the point values for foods I have been eating forever, but there is a certain novelty about the whole program now that makes me feel like I am having a fresh start. 
So I am back on the program and ready to eat right and focus on exercising.

I can't remember if I ever wrote about this but one of my goals has always been to become a really I am serious! I don't know why.  Maybe running to me represents the ultimate in fitness.  I am envious of those people who can just lace up their sneakers and head out for an "easy" 5 mile run. I've never been able to do that and recently I have been thinking about changing that fact.

For a few weeks last month I began following the C25k program for beginners who want to train to race in a 5K.  I really liked it and it made me feel like I was on my way to become one of those crazy people that I always see.  Day light savings time kicked in and it became too dark for me to run out doors after work.  It was really important to me to run outside rather than on a treadmill.  I feel like treadmill running isnt an accurate comparison to running outdoors and running on the treadmill isn't really that difficult for me.  So now I really want to challenge myself to follow the program and get to the point where I can run/jog 3.1 miles (5K) without stopping. 

And that is why I decided to sign up for my first 5K (GASP!!)

Yea you read correctly.  I signed up to run a 5K in mid-february.  I figured that would give me enough time to get through the training program.  Signing up kinda forces me to get out there and train for it. did i mention there was a registration fee? If for no other reason, my ass needs to train for this so that I don't feel like I flushed my money down the drain! I am kinda excited about it and I have recruited a friend to participate with me.  For the next 8 weeks I plan on including my training updates here.

Weight Watchers bagel
1 oz smoked salmon
1/2 weight watchers reduced fat cream cheese
6 pts
 (not pictured)

Steamed broccoli
Amy's Indian Matar Tofu
7 pts

pineapple, kiwi, strawberries
2 large shrimp
baby carrots
55 gold goldfish (yeah i counted them!)
5 pts
 (not pictured)

1 large potato
2 tsp olive oil
1/2 c light soy milk
3 slices canadian bacon
red onion
1/3 c part skim mozzarella cheese
2 tbsp sour cream
13 pts

I'll insert the pictures later!

Total for the day: 31 Weekly Bonus Points Used: 2

Monday, September 27, 2010

Look what I can do!....

 ....I CAN track for an entire day! Who wudda thunk it..
.....and its the first day since I had my weigh in last week that I have been able to pull it off. You can clap if you want to.

It was pretty easy to do today. I was swamped at work and was too busy to think about eating for the hell of it. 

Boca patty
kraft ff sharp cheddar
sandwich thin
3 pts

Quizno's Sammie -
sliced turkey
muenster cheese
lettuce, tomato, onion, olives
honey mustard
7 pts

fuji apple
strawberry cheesecake light and fit yogurt
(not pictured)
3 pts

1 and 1/2 cup whole wheat pasta
1/2 cup marinara sauce
1/4 c part skim riccotta
1/4 c mozzarella cheese
1 tsp olive oil
1 tbsp grated parmesan
11 pts

Total for the day: 24 pts
Weekly Bonus Points Used: 0

Thursday, September 23, 2010

Blame it on the Conch Burgers

I was so pumped to go to a meeting yesterday.  When I relate my going to a Weight Watchers meeting to an alcoholic going to AA it is not to be funny.  As embarrassed as I might be to see the damage that I have done through a number on a scale, there is a sense of relief as well because I know that I am taking the first step in getting myself back on track. 

Are you ready to see the number?
Are you?!?!?

Here goes nothing.....

I know. its ridiculous. 
Keep in mind I just came back from a vacation in the Bahamas this past weekend.  I basically spent the entire trip face down in a conch burger. (LOL that sounds suggestive).
Thats a conch burger.  (photo grabbed from google images)
I had at least 4 of these over a four day period. With fries each and every time. Yum?


But like I said, I getting my ass back on track. You with me?

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Trying to find my way back

Its been wild.

I will keep the story short.  I FINALLY got a job doing what I went to school for! YaY!!
Since my last weight update, I have gained AT LEAST 10 lbs!! BOOOO!!! (I will be able to provide a real number after my weigh in this week <----the first in MONTHS!!)

LoL....or Cry Out Loud, depending on who is around me at the time.

I feel out of control.  I feel like I am failing and it is really bothering me.  I feel like I have no limits at all! I just eat everything within sight at any time.  Exercise? Whats that? The only thing that I have been consistent about in the past few months has been my inconsistency.  I'll track for a few days, splurge for a week and a half. I am a mess.

So ...just wanted to put it out there for anyone who is still around that I will be blogging and tracking again.  I don't know how successful I will be at capturing pictures of meals and such since 90% of my day will be spent at work and I dont want to explain why I keep snapping pics of food lol.

Sunday, March 7, 2010

Trying New Products

Is it just me, or does it seem like when you go to the supermarket and buy new products to try you have an overwhelming desire to try them all at once? Despite the fact that I have soo many dessert options in my fridge, I felt compelled to bake Black Bean Brownies today just to try them.  I have sooo many snack choices available (fruit, veggies, yogurt, etc) but now all I can think about are the stupid Jello Mousse Temptations.  Bare with me people, it might be a rough week...

3 egg whites
1 tsp olive oil
smoked salmon
bagel thin
1 tbsp phili whipped cream cheese
4.5 pts

jello mousse temptation
3 pts
(not pictured)

1 and 1/2 c whole wheat pasta
1/2 c pasta sauce
1 c eggplant
2 tbsp grated parmesan cheese
7 pts

Sweet potato
Chicken breast
1 tsp olive oil
1/4 c ketchup
8 pts

Black bean brownie
3 pts

Total for the day: 25.5
Weekly Bonus Points Used: 2.5
Bonus points remaining for the week: 32.5

Saturday, March 6, 2010

New Buys and Weigh Ins

I've been gone for a minute...but now I am back.
I don't have my laptop so I am using the home pc (which i hate...) But I gotta do what I gotta do to stay accountable right?
By the skin of my teeth I managed to have a loss this week. ... i don't know how this miracle occured since I stopped counting points on Monday, but i won't ask any questions!
LAST week I had a good solid loss so the smaller loss this week didn't really phase me.

I have this personal mini goal of reaching 155 by the end of April (my 25th bday).  That is a little less than 8 weeks away so I know that it can be done.  I know I need some sort of consistent gym schedule but......well i guess there really isn't a but except for the fact that I am lazy. LoL.

In the time between now and my last blog I have been conducting Oatmeal experiments.


I have come to the conclusion that regular plain quaker oats oatmeal isnt gonna cut it for me.  I can't swallow it.  My throat closes up and my stomach refuses to accept it. The only oatmeal that I actively like, is the instant flavored quaker oats (ie Maple Brown Sugar, Cinnamon Swirl, yada yada yada).  Its still oatmeal right?!? great. When I use the flavored kind and try the suggestions you guys gave me in an earlier post - YUM!! In my opinion, I have solved my oatmeal dilema. I know you are proud.

I bought a couple of things that everyone raves about.  I feel like a sheep, but so far so good!

I bought vitatops and Peanut Butter Co Dark chocolate dreams peanut butter.  The peanut butter has been going in my oatmeal.  I was never one of those kids that ate peanut butter and jelly sandwiches (wheres the meat?) but in oatmeal? Perfection!

I haven't tried the corn vitatops as yet and I hope they are as tastey as the chocolate, chocolate chip. One point?!?!? seriously? I will take that! My only complaint is the price.  At nearly 5 bucks a box (with four tops in each box) it is kinda ridiculous.  I only bought them because of a BOGO sale at the supermarket this week.  Oh I also bought those new Jello Mousse Temptations <- Buy this! Also only a point and it satisfies my chocolate needs. I want to try the Caramel Creme so I will pick that up next time.

Okay that's all FOR NOW.... be back with pretty pictures of pretty meals :)

Friday, February 26, 2010

I didn't fall off!

Hey Guys!

No worries! I did not just throw point counting to the wind.  I went on a little road trip to Tampa with my sister because she had to take her Bar Exam and I tagged along for moral support.  What a good sister I am!

Didn't have my laptop but even if I did the food wasnt really blogworthy.  Except for one night when I had sushi, my days mostly consisted of subway roast beef sandwiches.  You woulda hated seeing that repeatedly.  But I counted every day.  I even met up with a good friend of mine and had a really good workout.  Go Me!

Stay tuned for the today's eats, lovelies!

Total for the day:
Weekly Bonus Points Used:
Bonus points remaining for the week:

Saturday, February 20, 2010

Woop Woop Weigh In Results!

 Hey Everyone!

I don't know about you guys, but personally I am SURPRISED ...(and proud) that I managed to go the entire week tracking my points.  This blog definitely helped me stay accountable this week and really pushed me to make good choices.  THANKS EVERYONE!

Rolled myself outta bed this morning and took my ass to a meeting.  I mean, I acted like it was a hassle, but I was honestly just excited to step on the scale (strange!)

And the results:
Down 4.6 lbs! AANNNDDD I am back (albeit barely) in the 160s!! Yup Yup.  Maybe you are not impressed because this is technically weight that I have already lost before.  So What! Foodwise I worked hard this week.  I planned, I counted, I made good choices. I can only hope and work hard enough to ensure that this is the last time I will have to lose to work myself outta the 170s.

I plan on carrying this momentum into  the next week.  And I am returning to the gym.  My cold is gone and I can no longer use that as an excuse :)

Oh wait! Almost forgot - I lost a point today.  Since I moved into a new "decade" of weight, my daily point value has decreased from 24 to 23. Yay?

3 egg whites
2 tbsp shredded cheese
pancake muffins
5 pts

(not pictured)
1 pt

1/4 cup alfredo sauce
1 and 1/2 cup whole wheat pasta
broccoli and mushrooms

Is it alright that I made a lazy dinner? Of course it is! :) I live with my parents (whip out the violins) and one of my mother's biggest pet peeves is leftover food going to waste.  . . . so i had soup that was left over from a few days ago - progresso chicken and sausage gumbo. 

Chicken and sausage gumbo
bagelthin everything bagel
1 oz salmon
1 tbsp light cream cheese
6 pts

Dessert (as always!)
Smartones cookie dough sundae
1/2 chocolate muffin (Gina's Recipe) 
5 pts

Total for the day: 24.5
Weekly Bonus Points Used:1.5
Bonus points remaining for the week: 33.5

Friday, February 19, 2010

Gimme Oatmeal Ideas!!!.... Please:0)

Today is my last day before my next weigh in.  Psychologically, I feel compelled to eat all of my remaining weekly bonus points (THEY ARE MINE DAMMIT) but I am sure I will somehow find the strength to contain myself.

Hey you guys, please gimme your favorite oatmeal combination (and recipe if necessary).  I am starting to like it more. I mean the truth is, oatmeal is tasty if I get to put everything that I want into it.  I just struggle with spending too many points on oatmeal - so you got any hints/suggestions? I see people using things like yogurt, peanutbutter, etc and I woud love to give it a try.

Quaker instant oatmeal
1/2 cup Silk vanilla soy milk
1/2 banana
1/2 c strawberries
5 pts

My mom grated cabbage and carrots yesterday and just to get rid of the leftovers in the fridge, I made cole slaw.  The dressing was made with a tbsp of lite mayo, tsp of olive oil, splash of vinegar, little bit of mustard, salt, pepper, basil, and parsley...

chicken thigh with skin and bone
cole slaw (w 1tbsp lite mayo, 1 tsp olive oil, mustard,  splash of vinegar, seasonings)
low carb wrap
tomatoes (not pictured) < --my bad!
7 pts

2 pts

16 wheat thins
butterbean chickpea dip
5 pts

Chicken drumstick with skin
zucchini "fries" (breaded and baked)
6 pts

Honestly, I made these zucchini fries because I REALLY wanted sweet potato fries, but it was late and they take too long to make.   So I made these instead.  Didn't like 'em.  The zucchini part was fine - i like zucchini.  But the breaded part wasn't tasty.  No thank you. 

Dessert (again!)
SmartOnes Cookie Dough Sundae
(not pictured)
3 pts

Total for the day: 28 pts
Weekly Bonus Points Used: 4 pts
Bonus points remaining for the week: 20.5

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

No More Eggs = day of mush

I woke up this morning to find that there were no eggs. Not a one. Ugh.
I depend on eggs in the morning. Admittedly, I have been eating omelets for the better part of the week. I searched high and low for something, ANYTHING to eat for breakfast besides oatmeal.

No dice.

So I had Quaker Maple and Brown Sugar instant oatmeal with strawberries.

1/3 c water and 1/3 c 2% milk
1 c strawberries
4.5 pts
Okay I did not hate it. It was actually pretty tasty. But I feel like oatmeal never fills me up the way I need to be in the morning. Oh well.
Today has been pretty uneventful. I am being really lazy and not doing much of anything. I was supposed to go to the gym this morning but I woke up too hungry and wasted time trying to figure out how I would survive without eggs. No Gym.

The refrigerator is getting kinda bare. I will have to work with what I got today. When I looked in the other fridge ( parents have two refrigerators.....and yet it always feels like there is nothing to eat. LoL.) there was a drawer full of potatoes .....

So I made cheese and bacon soup!

I tweeked the recipe a little - using part skip ricotta cheese instead of heavy cream. I used 2 potatoes, 1 tbsp white flour, 4 slices of bacon, 1/4 cup ricotta cheese, onion, garlic, a bullion cube and two cups of water for the soup itself, but divided the final product into two servings so that my sister could have some.
(Also used salt, pepper, oregano, and thyme to taste)

Saute bacon, onions, and garlic in pot until bacon is cooked and onions have browned.
Separately, mix flour with enough of the bullion broth to create smooth paste.
Add paste to pot and mix together.
Add remaining broth and diced potatoes and seasonings
Bring to boil and then simmer for 25 minutes or until potatoes are tender
Stir in ricotta cheese bit by bit to avoid lumping.
Top with cheese and fresh scallion. YUMMY!

1 potato
2 slices bacon
1/8 c ricotta cheese
3 tbsp cheddar cheese
1/2 tbsp flour
9 pts

So So sooooooo delicious. And I know that 9 pts seems like a lot for a bowl of soup, but there is potato in there! With bacon! ....AND CHEDDAR CHEESE........

My sister loved it and she isnt a weight watcher so I know its true. LoL
Yes my older sister looks crazy.  The house is cold today and instead of turning on the heat, she decided to put on every piece of mismatching clothing that was available to her.  You Like??

Anyways, I am trying to work up the nerve to take a bikini pic. I was inspired by Allie's Bikini Post and I think it would be great to have before and after pics. Sometimes losing weight is annoying because I don't always feel like I look different. So tomorrow...maybe....bikini before picture? I am not making any promises though....

For dinner I made chicken quarters:

Chicken thigh (with skin and bone)
1 cup brown rice
8 pts

SmartOnes Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough
(not pictured)
3 pts

Total for the day: 24.5
Weekly Bonus Points Used: 0.5
Bonus points remaining for the week: 26

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Let's be Hoooooneeeeeeessssst. (In Drake Voice)

Alright. If you don't know by now I've returned to blogging because I gained back almost 15 lbs that I thought I would never see again. It happens. But let me be clear. While that is the REASON I am back, its not exactly the catalyst for my return. So lemme just keep it real and tell you guys.

The tricky thing about 15 lbs (for me anyway) is that even though my clothes might be a little on the snug side, my pants still button. And that sucks. I mean, I am sure I don't look as good in them as I did 15 lbs ago, but I still rock them. And they are *GASP* skinny jeans.
So even though I saw the number on the scale creeping up to unwanted numbers, I just shrugged it off (I am a procrastinator) and kept on eating. See, I am the kind of procrastinator that is not moved to action until I feel some sense of pressure. I guess these tight ass jeans didnt give me enough pressure? I dunno. Whatever the case is, tight clothes weren't enough.

And then, it happened. Last tuesday. I had just gotten back from Orlando and I went with BabyCakes to see the tax man so he could get his taxes done. I'm waiting patiently in the waiting area, my boyfriend is on the other side of the divide (between the waiting area and the area to speak with the tax guy). The tax guy comes into the waiting area, takes a look at me and turns to my boyfriend and says (REALLY LOUDLY):

"I see you have someone out here about to have your baby soon"

Unfortunately I had forgotten my switch blade that day and was unable to kill this man or kill myself.

Really? Pregnant?
I thought there was just this generally known rule that even if a broad looks 9 months pregnant you are not allowed infer that she is. Even if she is panting, carrying a gut full of triplets, begging you to drive her to her OBGYN you shouldn't ask - just to be on the safe side. These are dangerous times we are living in. People have been strangled for lesser offenses.

I was so embarrassed having to tell this man repeatedly that no, I was not pregnant. And as if he didnt believe me, he looked to my boyfriend for confirmation as if I was lying. It wasn't just the fact that I had to deny a pregnant belly, my poor boyfriend had to say no, she isn't pregnant. That was the most embarrassing part of the whole thing. Being in this embarrassing ass situation in front of the boyfriend. ugh.

I spent the car ride home curled up in my seat.

Enter my return to blogging.

Anyway, on a much lighter note, today was a good day. Take a look:

egg white omlet with mushrooms and 1/4 c mozz cheese
4 pts

Vanilla Yogurt
(not pictured)
2 pts

1/2 c whole wheat flour
1/4 cup mozz. cheese
1/2 cup marinara sauce
1 tsp olive oil
carrots, mushrooms, fresh basil
side salad
9.5 pts

1 cup chicken and sausage gumbo
16 wheat thins
6 pts

SmartOnes cookie dough dessert
(not pictured)
3 pts

Total for the day: 24.5 pts
Weekly Bonus Points Used: 0.5 pts
Bonus points remaining for the week: 26.5 pts