Not Even the Freezer can keep me from it.

Me and Cake, Us Never part.

Okay so it turns out that cake is hella easy to defrost. Too damn easy.

I started off with one slice.

Then I had another.

It was one of those mindless eating experiences. I was on the phone when it happened so I was tempted to consider what I stuffed down my throat null and void since I wasn't paying much attention to what I was chewing. To be honest, I really wanted to slaughter a third piece. But that woulda just been out of hand. I always eat things that I am not supposed to be eating in twos anyway. I didn't wanna f*ck up the pattern I have going. Shame on me.

The day started off rather well actually.

Breakfast
3 egg whites
mushrooms
tomato
1/4 cup mozzarella cheese
1 tsp olive oil
4.5 pts

Lunch
1 and 1/2 cup whole wheat pasta
1 salmon patty
spinach
1 tsp olive oil
tomato
1 tbsp fat free sour cream
1 tbsp parmesan cheese
8 pts

I dunno what happened after I ate this lunch. It was a good portion of food. I dont know if I waited too long to have lunch or what. Whatever the case is, after I ate, my stomach still felt like it was missing something. In hindsight, I probably should have bulked up the meal better with some broccoli or something.

Instead I defrosted cake.

I dont know why I felt like I 'deserved' it. Even worse, I dont know who gave me permission to dive into the second piece like I earned it. I wasted 8 whole points on cake.

Dinner
5 corn tortillas
tilapia
2 tsp olive oil
diced onions tomato cilantro
1/2 c black beans
8 pts

Total for the day: 28 points

::sigh::

Okay so let me just say I dont have a problem going over my daily allowed points. Like I've said before, weight watchers gives weekly bonus points to use if you need them. My problem is, I dont like feeling out of control when it comes to eating. Like why wasn't one slice of cake enough? No one eats cake to feel full. So why do I do that? Its weird.

Personally, I know that I lose weight best when I use bonus points only on the weekend (right after a weigh in) and stick to my daily points allowance throughout the week. Ugh.

I guess I am gonna be in for a treat when I step on the scale on saturday.

xoxo
dee.

Sorry for the neglect!

Ugh I've been busy. Like I said, I'm finishing my last 3 weeks of classes so I missed a day of blogging. Yesterday I ate fairly well. It was a pretty boring day of food so I wont even upload the pics of it all. I did have a slice of the freezer cake LoL. It was great! After it defrosted it actually tasted better than the first day I had it. Weird. I had 27 points yesterday - using 5 of my weekly bonus points. I was kinda annoyed by it because I ate a 5 point Clif bar unnecessarily. Nessie suggested that I try the Clif Z bar instead as it is less calories so I'll look out for them.

I worked out again last night - this time I managed to pull off an hour jogging and walking on the treadmill. And then I did the whole routine of lunges, pushups, and booty toning stuff. And now everything is sore.

Okay here's the food for today:

Breakfast
Omlette:
3 egg whites
1/4 cup mozzarella cheese
broccoli
tomato
1 tsp olive oil
4 pts

I bought these individual little baking trays yesterday and I used them to make a little individual lasagna. I had the noodles as well but I had already planned out my points for the day and couldnt "afford" the noodles. LoL. Soooo... instead of the noodles I just used the eggplant. I was surprised that it turned out good. It wasnt as solid as a lasagna with noodles would be, but it was yummy all the same.

Lunch
Eggplant "lasagna"
Eggplant
mushrooms
1/4 c part skim ricotta cheese
1/4 c mozzarella cheese
tomato sauce
1 tbsp parmesan cheese
4.5 pts


Snack
peach
1 pt

I have never been a fan of peaches. I have a childhood memory of my mom packing little canned fruit cocktails in my lunch and I hated them. Eww. Canned peaches are gross. And I guess I thought canned peaches were a representation of real, fresh peaches so I have avoided them all my life. I bought one the other day just to try it because the price was right. LoL. And it was good. I will buy peaches in the future.

Dinner
chicken breast
1 tsp olive oil
1/2 c black beans
1 c brown rice
tomatoes
9 pts

Dessert
yogurt
1 banana
1/4 cup blue berries
(not pictured)
4 pts

Total for the day: 22.5 pts
I felt too sore to do any exercise today so...none for me thanks!

xoxo
dee.

Pushing Through

I wanted pancakes this morning but didn't want to have that stupid 2 pt syrup with them. So I tested the muffin thing. I prepared the batter just like the directions say on the Fiber 1 box and added 1/2 cup blueberries to the batter. Muffins came out great!!

Breakfast
3 blueberry pancake muffins
1/2 chicken sausage
3 egg whites
6 pts

Snack
Kettle Korn
1 pt

Alright, I am getting tired of the Kettle Korn. I realize I like it because it takes a while to eat and its only 1 point. Any ideas on other low point snacks besides fruit? Lemme know!!

Lunch
1 and 1/2 cup whole wheat pasta
egg plant and red bell pepper
1 tbsp parmesan cheese
6 pts

For some reason, right after lunch I was STARVING. I don't know what's going on. My meals so far have been "filling", but my stomach is craving more food! WTF?! I really hate this feeling because it tends to lead me to overeat or make poor food choices. I talked to my homie who happens to read my blog (Hi PIE!!!) and she said that I need to eat more meat. I am not a big meat eater. Besides eggs, I dont think it would be very hard for me to stop eating meat...oh wait except for Jamaican food. Whatever the case is I am going to try to eat MORE MEAT!!

Snack
Yogurt
1/2 banana
3 pts

Hey! I also did a random workout today. I jogged and walked a bit on the treadmill for 30 minutes. (I really dont know where my endurance went). Then I did some calisthenics - lunges, pushups, some crazy side to side jumping thing that I saw in Jillian Michaels' Thirty day Shred, and some booty exercises. YEA I SAID IT. I felt like I could take over the world so I put on some boxing gloves and punched this big boxing thing. No clue what its called. Picture Rocky. Not the balloon looking thing. The big ol' body bag looking thing. haha. Im a girl.

Dinner
REAL chicken breast
Sandwich thin
broccoli
5 pts

Dessert
1/2 Banana
1 pt

My dinners for the past 2 nights have been pretty lame. I mean they tasted great, but eh. Not the most creative. For one, I ate dinner pretty late and secondly, I have basically come to the end of my food inventory LoL. Tomorrow I am restocking and I plan on buying some new things. I want to try to make an individual size veggie lasagna. I also want to try to artichokes. I have no idea what to do with an artichoke but lets see how it plays out!

Total for the day: 22 pts.
I cant believe I pulled it off today.

xoxo
dee.

I miss my point!

Losing a point on Weight Watchers really messes with me mentally. All day today I was wondering how in the world I would survive without that extra point. Then I started thinking that when I am close to my goal weight, I am gonna have to give up yet ANOTHER precious point. ugh! This hurts.

I was all about my fruits and vegetables today. There was a moment when I wanted to open my freezer and grab a piece of cake that I stashed away. But luckily, I was too lazy to take it out and too impatient to wait for it to defrost. Plus today I really wanted to test out my 22 point restriction and not dip into my weekly bonus points.

Breakfast
1/2 cup blueberries
1 whole wheat english muffin
1 tbsp WW cream cheese
3 scrambled egg whites
kraft ff cheddar cheese (in eggs)
4 pts

Snack
Kettle Korn
1 pt

Lunch
5 corn tortillas
1/2 cup black beans
2 tbsp fat free sour cream
stir fried eggplant, red bell pepper, onions
5.5 pts

Snack
yogurt
1/2 banana
1/2 cup blue berries
(not pictured)
3.5 pts

I took a late evening nap and I woke up feeling like I wasted my day doing nothing. I felt like a little exercise. I threw on my work out clothes before I could change my mind.

Hello old friend!

That's my treadmill in the basement of my apartment building. Yes. It is mine. There are other treadmills in the gym, but this one is my old faithful. I had such a hard time today though. I really struggled jogging - I stopped jogging after a mile and a half and started walking. Then after 30 minutes I just gave up. I was really exhausted

Dinner
"chicken" patty
Sandwich thin
Kraft ff cheddar cheese
1 apple
1/2 banana
8 pts

Total : 22 pts


xoxo
dee.

I've Been Evicted!!

FROM THE 160's!!!!

Boom.Boom.Pow.

This is great!
That number is definitely foreign to me. Honestly, I feel like the only time I know for sure I weighed lower than this was the day I was born!

However, I would like to take this time to mourn the loss of a point. In weight watchers, every time you enter a new "decade" of weight, your daily points target decreases by one. So now that I am in the 150s (crazy!) my points target decreases from 23 to 22.
Join me in this moment of silence....


Okay so now I am entering new territory with the weight and I am nervous. I have a tendency to sabotage myself (damn you snickers bars!) So I will have to be extra careful this week. That being said, I plan on making a cake this evening. haha. Saturday is just a day where I kinda relax with my points. I allow myself to use my weekly bonus points if I want, and I have already made plans for some of them with this cake. We'll see how it turns out.

I did have a clif bar today :) I accomplished my goal of holding out for a week, and since the week is over.....CLIF BAR FOR DEE!

Cliff bar
5 pts

Also, its Saturday and I am breaking my habit of buying ready made meals. (The fact that budget constraints prevent me from splurging for the next few days also helps) So right after the meeting today I raced back home to make something before work.

Brunch
3 egg whites
Whole Wheat english muffin
1 tbsp WW cream cheese
1/2 chicken sausage
4 pts

I was very hungry after work but I had to stop at the supermarket to pick up the box cake I was gonna make later and I HATE going to the supermarket hungry. So I picked up ANOTHER clif bar :)

"Snack"
Clif Bar
(not pictured)
5 pts

Lunch
Whole Wheat Pita
Red and Green bell peppers
1/3 cup mozzarella cheese
1 tbsp parmesan cheese
5.5 pts

Dinner
1 and 1/2 cup whole wheat pasta
Tilapia fillet
1 tbsp sour cream
spinach, diced tomatoes, garlic
1 tbsp parmesan cheese
9 pts

It was similar to what I made a few nights ago except I didn't add the butter. It was not as tasty without the butter, but I still liked it!

Okay and for the big finale, I made a Betty Crocker Super Moist Triple Chocolate Fudge Cake! Instead of preparing the batter by the instructions on the back of the box, I only added 2 egg whites and 1 can of diet Coke to the mixture. I found the recipe at Gina's Weight Watcher's Recipes Blog.

After it finished baking, I cut it into 12 squares. Before I even had my piece, I packed the eleven other servings in sandwich bags and put them in the freezer!!! Clearly I know that I cannot be trusted with extra servings of cake lying around my house. And I don't want to have a repeat of the dishwashing liquid intervention.

I snapped a photo midway through my packing














After all the extra pieces were packaged and packed safely in the freezer, I served myself!
Topped the cake square with that Dreyer's individual serving of Vanilla bean ice cream I mentioned in an older post and a table spoon of chocolate fudge!!!

Dessert
8 pts

Total for the day: 36.5 pts!!!
Yay!!

xoxo
dee.

23 More Days!

Okay so I have not really said much about myself in these posts - mostly because the people who read it on the regular already know these things about me. But in an attempt to put myself out there a little more for any random internet surfer/blogger/blog reader I guess I should talk about my personal life a little (there's more to it than food and weight after all...)

I am in graduate school at the University of Southern California (majoring in Industrial Engineering). In 23 days, my academic journey will FINALLY come to an end!! WOO HOOO!! After this is all finished I am heading back home to South Florida to hopefully find a job.
I am definitely excited about the move back because I miss my family, my friends, and the boyfriend :)

The only thing that I am concerned about is how the move will impact my weight loss. I have a good thing going here. I live alone, I cook for myself - there is a sense of control that I have here in Los Angeles. Hopefully I can take that with me when I head back home.

Anyway, I am just going to dedicate the next 23 days to really watching what I eat and staying focused because who knows what the move back home will bring?

Breakfast
3 egg whites
1 apple
grilled cheese sandwich
(2 slices reduced cal. bread, 2tbsp WW cream cheese, 1 slice kraft ff cheddar)

5 pts

Snack
Kettle Korn
1 pt

Lunch
Salmon Burger
french fries (made myself)
broccoli
dip
7 pts

Dinner
5 corn tortillas
1/2 cup black beans
chicken breast (chopped up)
diced onions, tomatoes, cilantro
9 pts
Dessert
Yogurt
2 pts

24 points in total today!

Weigh In tomorrow! Wish me luck!

Mind Body Disconnect

Despite being overweight, I have never actually hated my body. Even at my highest weight, when I looked in the mirror I never felt gross about what I saw.

So why is it that suddenly, after losing 25 lbs, I feel fat?

I dont know what it is. I can't explain it. I feel more self conscious about my body than I ever have before. Before I joined weight watchers I looked back at my freshman year weight (160) as this magical number. And now that I am here it just feels like....ok....what was all the fuss about? THIS is what 160 feels like? Thats it?

Maybe I expected fire works.

I know a part of it is due to the fact that I still have a ways to go. And even though I am technically not "obese" I still feel like I am in my mind. Its weird.

xoxo
dee.