Friday, July 31, 2009

Not Even the Freezer can keep me from it.

Me and Cake, Us Never part.

Okay so it turns out that cake is hella easy to defrost. Too damn easy.

I started off with one slice.

Then I had another.

It was one of those mindless eating experiences. I was on the phone when it happened so I was tempted to consider what I stuffed down my throat null and void since I wasn't paying much attention to what I was chewing. To be honest, I really wanted to slaughter a third piece. But that woulda just been out of hand. I always eat things that I am not supposed to be eating in twos anyway. I didn't wanna f*ck up the pattern I have going. Shame on me.

The day started off rather well actually.
Breakfast
3 egg whites
mushrooms
tomato
1/4 cup mozzarella cheese
1 tsp olive oil
4.5 pts

Lunch
1 and 1/2 cup whole wheat pasta
1 salmon patty
spinach
1 tsp olive oil
tomato
1 tbsp fat free sour cream
1 tbsp parmesan cheese
8 pts
I dunno what happened after I ate this lunch. It was a good portion of food. I dont know if I waited too long to have lunch or what. Whatever the case is, after I ate, my stomach still felt like it was missing something. In hindsight, I probably should have bulked up the meal better with some broccoli or something.

Instead I defrosted cake.

I dont know why I felt like I 'deserved' it. Even worse, I dont know who gave me permission to dive into the second piece like I earned it. I wasted 8 whole points on cake.

Dinner
5 corn tortillas
tilapia
2 tsp olive oil
diced onions tomato cilantro
1/2 c black beans
8 pts
Total for the day: 28 points

::sigh::

Okay so let me just say I dont have a problem going over my daily allowed points. Like I've said before, weight watchers gives weekly bonus points to use if you need them. My problem is, I dont like feeling out of control when it comes to eating. Like why wasn't one slice of cake enough? No one eats cake to feel full. So why do I do that? Its weird.

Personally, I know that I lose weight best when I use bonus points only on the weekend (right after a weigh in) and stick to my daily points allowance throughout the week. Ugh.

I guess I am gonna be in for a treat when I step on the scale on saturday.

xoxo
dee.

5 comments:

cheesecake45 said...

Well, you live and you learn. Don't beat yourself up over it. Just don't buy anymore cake treats....or keep the dishwashing liquid handy.

You've been doing really well, so be proud of yourself. Stay focused. Continue to keep up your gym regimen. Remember your goal :o)

Love,
Shelly

andrea. said...

Ha ha! Well, let me assure you, you aren't the only one who eats cake until they feel full! :) But I know what you mean, and I agree that it's not the points that matter but that out of control feeling. I still struggle with that too. You ARE doing really well so far though and I think noticing and thinking about these behaviors is really important!

ladykool said...

LOL! Of course cake is easy to defrost. It's light and fluffy and moist...ok I gotta go now!

ladykool said...

LMAO!! I just realized you were channeling The Color Purple with your title and subtitle....LOL!

Dee Lighter said...

@Andrea - I am really making an effort to monitor my behavior and try to not have such a "connection" with food. Agh I dont know how the 'regular' people do it. Work in progress....

@ladykool - LoL!!!! I know! you were the first person to get it :) hehe. I was surprised Shelly didn't point it out first

xoxo
dee

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